My Shits

8 Little Kittens

2009-10-28T11:52:00.004+08:00

My parents let go of all my kittens yesterday afternoon.I was kind of expecting it so i wasnt really affected by it initially.

But it was terribly heartbreaking when i saw 1 kitten hiding under a stairway, looking so scared and all alone.i had to literally crawl under the stairway just to get to it.and as i was carrying him and looking for the rest of the pack he was meowing so loud out of fright to the unknown outside environment.the whole pack was born and bred in the house.they've never gone out for more than an hr or two.my heart broke thinking abt how for the rest of their lives now they'll be living on their own.

Monster found 5 more sitting together at another place nearby.the moment this one kitten saw the rest of the pack he automatically stop meowing at the familiar scent of his siblings.even more heartbreaking is the fact that they recognise monster and me.when we sat with them they started eating the food that has been infront of them all the while.obviously it hasnt been touched.they must have been too scared too eat.and 2 wont even eat until monster and me feed them with our hands.at home they would usually rush for their share of the food and sometimes they would even get angry at each other if another kitten eats one's share of the food.
After eating some of them sat in between our legs and refused to sit somewhere else.i felt so reluctant to leave them.they were constantly on their guard and was cringing at every sound they hear and everything they saw.

After feeding 6 of the kittens we suddenly heard the meow(s) of the 2 remaining kittens.they were hiding in the bushes behind where we were sitting.when i took them out they were covered in red ants.maybe meowing in fear and pain.after i cleared all the red ants from their body monster bought food for them.i could tell that they were really hungry.poor little kittens...

When monster and i were around some of them were playing with us.im not sure if they could do that when we are gone...
Since it was getting late monster and i decided to look for a box so that they could sleep and hide inside, away from the noise and sight of the outside that they are so not use to.
When we brought the box to them they immediately helped themselves and when into the box.fear striking on their faces.when they were outside i could see that it was difficult for them to sleep.their eyes kept shutting but they kept forcing their eyes open lest the threathening unknown.but when in the box some immediately fall asleep cuddling the other kittens.
After we labelled the box, so that people wont mistake it for trash, and ensure that they wont leave the box we left them.....

Now i cant stop thingking abt them.it rained a moment ago and i wonder if their box is wet.I woke at 5 in the morning and couldnt sleep well since.there's just too much to think abt.i havent felt this sad for a very very very long time.i didnt think i'd be so attached to these kittens.i even skipped my morning class and came sch late because all these just spoils my mood.fcking hell...and it doesnt help that i have a mock maths test later.

I dont know who to blame for all these.Im not sure if it was my fault for wanting to bring the parents of these kittens hm, when i found them at a trash place a yr and a half ago, or blame my dad for using the cash that mom saved to send the 1st 5 cats for sterilization.gosh!i just feel like im in a mess right now.oh top of the h1 maths paper that is coming soon i have so many other undesirable things happening.gosh...

P.S: Thank you very much to all who gave hope and offered a home to my kittens and then declined.You guys are a load of help!*roll eyes*

Young death

2009-10-15T14:46:00.002+08:00

It was only yesterday that i said my prayers for Ridzman's sister hoping that god would improve her condition.but sadly it was also yesterday, a couple of hrs after i updated, that i found out she has passed on.it was devastating to know how one's life can be loss at such a young age and leaving a family behind at that.Shows how much we should cherish life while we still have it and in the course of it constantly keep ourselves close to god ao that when the time comes, no matter how young or old our age, we would be prepared to face the other world.

My deepest Condolences to Ridzman n his Family
i sympathize with your loss and i hope ur family would be strong enough to face this.
Inalillah.

Southern Ridges Love

2009-10-14T11:43:00.012+08:00

Yesterday Monster and I went to southern ridges for a long long walk.i would call it an adventure because really how many times do we (the youths) engage ourselves in such close-to-nature activities.from the likes of my social group i can say not so often.heh.no offence to anybody though.

And yesterday was FCKING-AWESOME.the weather was really nice and windy, it was drizzling a little bit but that wasnt a problem at all, so that makes the journey more enjoyable because we dont have to tolerate the hot sun and the humidity.gosh..what more can i say it was just awesome,yesterday.the weather, the view (most of it), the atmosphere, the company i had was perfect for such a long walk.i am very contented!:)

the rest of this post will be based on these pictures,

this is where we started off.im not sure where we are actually its somewhere around river valley sec sch i think.all the pictures are taken by our handphones because the camera batt just went dead after like 2 pathetic pictures.stupid!

but thank god for the camera phones!dont you just love technology.hahah!

here you can see part of the trail that we followed.it looks like its high up but when we were there the ground wasnt really that far down.the centre pic is a pic from how high we were to the ground.it was really scary at 1st to see the ground from that height but that was as high as i could see the ground because later in the trail ,we were high up, but it was like a hilltop so the ground wasnt far from us.we were just high above land like that u know...

i hope u get what im trying to say because the rm that im in is a little too noisy for me to be able to put my thoughts into proper sentences.

while walking we saw a bird's house.i wonder who went all the way up to the tree to place the bird's house there.the birds cant possibly be the ones who built it right...and it was reall high up the tree, so i think that was cool.the next picture is the trail we've followed so far.it wasnt that far really,maybe about 1km plus-plus...

oh!while we were walking there was alot of notes along the way abt the plants that grow in the area.and one of it was this pitcher plant.monster was really excited abt it and he wanted so much to see the plant but sadly we couldnt find it among all the other plants and trees.poor monster, he was really disappointed.maybe next time love..

by this time we were famished!our stomachs were alr growling.and the 1st thing i thought of when we saw this resting point was STOP AND EAT!!!!!

we brought along sandwiches salad and cereals to eat.before heading off for the trip monster came over my place to prepare the food together.that was really a really fun prelude to the trip.but i swear i got soo excited that i was rushing a little and that pissed monster off a little.but it was all cool cuz i couldnt be bothered with petty arguments, ive waited too long for this trip to actualise.hahah!luckily for me monster isnt at all petty. *huge smile*

then while walking after our short late lunch break we came across this place uphill the track.it was beautiful,

there was only this one hut that was available for people to sit.but why sit when we can cam whore right.

here are just a few of the pictures that we took.i'll upload the rest on facebook.so if anybody is interested to see just check out fb!

then we walked pass this park place and we saw a few monkeys there.it was cool to be able to see wild monkeys running around and not in the zoo.

we also saw the monkeys looking for fleas in each others fur and eating them!its like one big happy monkey family.monster and i assumed that the one bending over is the male behind it is the female and the one one the male's back is the young.hah!we might not be right..but who cares.hahah!

while continuing the trail monster pinted out to me the view of the city.i think its awesome that we could be able to see so far from the area.but then again its likely that we can have this view since we're so high up.

so the next stop was one i had been looking forward to, henderson wave.my sister has talked abt it many times and ive seen the place on tv more times than my sis has talked abt it.honestly i was abit disappointed with the place because it looked more beautiful on tv but part of the view made up for it because when i looked straight all i could see was green from the trees.but too bad the left and the right was a view of buildings and the telok belange estate.

nonetheless it was really awesome there.and we also saw a small group of friends celebrating a birthday.i think it was really nice to celebrate the occassion there with only a few really close friends.

so here we are...

this is the view.i love the sea view especially i just think seaviews are very serene and calming.its a nice addition to the already very awesome hilltop atmosphere.

our next stop was this pirate ship like place where we saw this pond with many many tortoise in it.we didnt spend much time there because there were many pple and a little noisy.so we went ahead to the last part of the trail leading to harbour front mrt station.

this is the marang trail, the last part of the trail.there were ALOT (!!!!!) of steps down.and on our way we saw this very private bungalow amongst the forest.i thought that was super (!!!!!) awesome!!really private and i bet really expensive.

and i wonder how the residents there go home because i dont see any roads from outside that leads into the house.but that just makes it extra cool.

Finally, this was the end of the road.i cant explain how satisfied i feel after the whole trip.we took about 3hrs to finish walking abt 5km up and down the hill.i swear my legs were trembling when were taking these pictures.

all in all the day was just utterly awesome filled with laughters adn excitement.no doubt that it was tiring but the fun kept us goin and even after walking the trail we didnt really feel the tiredness cuz we were still having fun.

Regards to Ridzman n his Family,

his sister is in the hospital now and in critical condition.

Monster and I will pray for her's and the family's well-being.

Insya'allah.

Mini Kampung Meet Up

2009-10-08T12:18:00.003+08:00

Last night there was a mini kampung meet up with Wawan Fifi Fiez Hasif and Johan.even though it was a short one (cuz i have sch today so i cant be hm too late) it was defintiely fun.especially with the boys and their inside (boys only) jokes who would suddenly burst into laughter leaving me and fifi oblivious.this makes me just laugh along with them because its just funny seeing them laugh like that.hahah.dont u think so fifi?

First stop was Poppye's at Sg Flyer for dinner.this was where the boys started to laugh at their inside jokes.then we headed to marina sq as hasif and fifi wanted to do a little shopping.our last stop was marina barrage where most of these pictures were taken.

We didnt stay long there because of mine and johan's curfew.so after a few pictures and lots of laughs we headed hm.actually wan sent me hm but im not sure if fifi and the boys went on to hang out til late.

I really wish i could stay longer because really i dont meet up with them often.and its so much easier to talk to everybody now as compared to when we were in sch a few yrs back.so im looking forward to my holidays so that i'll have more time to hang out with all my friends.

Look at me, pictures dont lie, I-AM-SO-FUCKING-FAT!!!!!

Lets end off with a laugh looking at this picture.thanks fifi for making the readers (if any) laugh.

hahahah!!!!!

JCo Yoghurt

2009-10-07T08:23:00.005+08:00

Finally ive found time to blog.and even better ive found time to do things that i could blog about rather than just school and its repetitive happenings..almost repetitive.so here goes....

Monster and i went to J Co at Bugis to try their yoghurt yesterday.thanks to Ria for introducing their yummy yoghurt.ive always thought that frolicks yoghurt was the best but as of yesterday ive found a cheaper subtitute for my cravings for yoghurt.delicious!

Only 5$ for a large bowl with 4 (!!!) toppings.much cheaper as compared to frolicks and its almost equally delightful.almost because i was kind of disappointed that they dont have granola as their choice of toppings.but then again cornflakes make quite a gd replacement for it.

Before bugis we went to IMM to just walk around and let time pass before heading to bugis.I didnt know daiso had so many interesting and definitely cheap stationeries.

So then...here are some pictures,

After finishing the bowl we realize that we didnt need much time to finish a large bowl of yoghurt, frolicks or Jco alike.Then again...its monster, he finishes everything fast.hahaha! And i have to say that the place has a really nice ambience.the many times that i go to bugis jucntion ive always walked pass and thought that JCo has a nice setting but ive nvr sat down and really enjoy the place.so yesterday was really nice.and they have novels and books that is available for patrons to read.so thats nice too.

Just look at us..obviously cant get enough of the 1 bowl.Im definitely looking forward to the next time.hahah!Fat person talking..

After the yoghurt we head hm to catch the Mentalist.apparently its our current Crime night favourite next to CSI ofcourse.What a clever show, the Mentalist.

So all in all yesterday was awesome!!!!!i had alot of fun despite my pms.it was a good way to spend time with my love and make up for some time loss to petty arguments.hmmm....

As for today, im looking forward to meeting Wawan Fifi and some other kampung mates for a ride around the country.hahah!Cant wait!

Till the next post!

MEOW!!!!!Cheers!

Quick Update

2009-08-25T14:06:00.002+08:00

Forgive me for the lack of updates.life has been really hectic.there's homework almost everyday!
And on top of that i still need to make time for revisions because promotional exam is up in 2 (MINUS-MINUS) WEEKS!!!!!!!!!!

Happy fasting to all Muslims.

quick post

2009-07-27T13:11:00.004+08:00

I think its time for an update.it has been really long since the last post.
but i dont know what to say...

my feelings are abit messed up.
my brain is not quite able to figure out what's mixing in my emotinal system.

here's something from wheatus titled give a little respect...

"I tried to discover a little something to make me sweeter
Oh baby refrain from breaking my heart
I'm so in love with youI'll be forever blue
That you give me no reason, you know you're making me work so hard
That you give me no . . . Soul

And if I should falter, would you open your arms out to me?
We can make love not war, and live in peace with our hearts
I'm so in love with you,
I'll be forever blue
What religion or reason could drive a man to forsake his lover?
Don't you tell me no. . . Soul."

got to go.

2009-07-10T15:40:00.005+08:00

this is my cat ham-ham sleeping with his tongue out

It took 7mins to start this laptop.and another 6mins to get connected to wireless@sg.
yes!thats how slow this laptop is!
but since im a free girl today.i dont mind the wait.

finally the mid yr exam is over!
malay lit paper yest was the last paper.and a killer it was!!
i shall not elaborate anymore on it.i should just leave it at that.gosh!

its just a relieve that the exam is over.i can now rest without feeling any guilt
or thinking that the time would be better spent studying.
not that i didnt rest at all while studying.but sometimes its just paranoia.

but then again i shouldnt be celebrating too much.
because really there isnt much time for rest.the end of yr promotional exam is only abt 2mths away.
and this my last chance to redeem myself in sch.
i have to prove that i am worthy of a spot in thrid yr next yr.
wow!thinking abt that alone is a whole lot of weight on the shoulders.(and in the brain!)

however so i guess i should take this 3days off thinking abt sch, but not totally!i dont wanna get too comfy with rest,
monday is gonna be a whole new semester with many more topics to squeeze in my already very overloaded brain.well atleast i think its overloaded...
but i think i can manage..with some extra effort nothing is impossible!hah.

as for today...
i cant wait to watch Bujang Lapok at Under the Banyan Tree movie screening
its gonna be a whole lot of fun and laughter.
what a classic bujang lapok is.

that should be it for now.

Farewell for Cikgu

2009-06-16T15:57:00.002+08:00

Yest my previous malay literature class had a farewell get together for our teacher.she's leaving to teach in another school (i think..) so to show her our appreciation we had a this final get together.

the day was just basically lunch at seoul garden on cikgu.funny how we were the ones who initiated the get together but cikgu was the one who treated us to the meal.but nonetheless we had alot of fun gathering and eating.the class has some big eaters i tell you.hahah.like literally.hahahah.and everybody who had left the class also came back.so in a way it was sort of like a reunion of last yr's malay literature class too.

And ofcourse we cant let cikgu leave us empty handed.so the class made a photo album for her filled with our photos, thank yous and well wishes.and we also bought her another gift.which was gorgeous!!!!!hahah.

then after that cikgu had to leave to run some household errands.it was the first time ever we all felt reluctant to leave each other.we would usually sigh in relieve when the school bell ring indicating the end of malay literature class but yest it was difficult for us to leave knowing that it might just be the last time we see cikgu smiling and laughing with us.but ofcourse hopefully we'll be able to visit her during hari raya.

so i think no matter how much we think we dislike cikgu and her lesson, im sure deep down inside we all love her for tolerating our nonsense and what not and providing us with the knowledge we very much need to succeed.

and for that

thank you cikgu rasiah

2009-06-11T16:56:00.003+08:00

Im taking a break from studying right now.so i shall take this little time that i have to update this poor almost forgotten blog of mine.
My birthday just passed and i'd like to thank monster for a day filled with surprises.i appreciate that he made that effort to fulfil my wishes to meet all my friends.and ofcourse the red limited edt nike dunk was a delightful cherry on top of the cake.
The day started with him surprising me with a small cake and that limited edt dunk at home where i cut the cake in the presence of only him and my sis since everybody else was out (my bro was sleeping.its just impossible to wake him up!).after eating the cake, i put on my brand new red limited edt nike on and off we go for lunch at al-azhar.prata banana!yummy!simple yet delicious.
Topsy kretts had a gig that day so i took the chance to meet up with the wasted kids bunch.its been oh-too-long.initially i thought it was goin to be just me rayy and fifi.but i was glad to see amir rasul belle tedd ren shaifful shakila macky and mj there too.so after the gig we headed to lot1 for a quick dinner.that was where i was surprised with another (bigger than 1st) cake.and it was there and then (at kfc at lot1) that tedd tried to burst his lungs singing happy birthday for me.ofcourse the rest were singing too.i got a little drama and started shedding tears of joy.hahah!i couldnt help it.i cant believe monster would do this for me.really i wasnt expecting so much.and i thank wasted kids for taking time off to be there celebrating my birthday with me.because you guys have been very much missed.so then it was a quick picture session.
*pictures can be viewed through facebook
Then monster and me had to rush off to imm.monster claim that he had a random urge to go there to eat.but when we reached there my parents and siblings were waiting anxiously for us at swensen's.apparently they had waited for almost 2hrs for us.hahah!i couldnt help it since i didnt kknow they were there.pictures with wasted kids is a must!hahah.so we has a nice decent family dinner there.its been a really long tim my family gathered for a birthday celebration because we've all grown to be so busy with our own time.so it was a nice touch to my day.
So that was my 7th june this yr.awesome.eventhough some of my friends couldnt make it i still aprreciate their well wishes.
THANK YOU MONSTER MY FAMILY WASTED KIDS AND TOPSY KRETTS!!!!!
THANK YOU EVERYONE!

gotta run!

Friends

2009-06-03T20:03:00.002+08:00

I was browsing through some pictures of my friends and i awhile ago and i realise how much i miss them.how much i miss the late nights, loud laughters, rude cursing (jokingly ofcourse...or mayb not!hahah!) and everything else that come along with it.i guess i've been too caught up with my own life and school and all that i leave no room for all my friends.i keep telling my friends to meet up soon but "soon" never seem to come.there's just too much to handle.and im too afraid that my studies will get compromised for time with friends.

but then again i should be able to manage my time.afterall, it is the hols now.oh gosh!i just miss all my friends all too much.

2009-05-28T15:06:00.004+08:00

Gee Pee paper has come and gone.and so has malay language paper.oh!how tiring it was finishing both papers was undescribable.wait..actually its somewhat like sitting down for almost 5hrs (sometimes more) playing the angklung.i know its not much of a comparison but really it does feel like that.how weird..

june hols are coming and im excited for it!finally a break.some extra time for some much needed extra sleep.the joy of waking up at 10am (most of the time later) is just amazing!!well..now i realise how deprived i am of late mornings.

but then again i shouldnt rejoice too extremely because the mid year exam is walking down my corridor right now.and before i know it, there'll be a knock at the door indicating the end of the semester hols and the start of 2wks long of exam.then subsequently it'll be 3mths (plus-minus) of classes and then the oncoming of the very much awaited final year exams.

this is the glory of being a student...SIGH!

however so i am very determined to do well for the upcomnig exams.there's no more room for failure now.literally!

here's something random:

my literature classmate, arif, wants all to know that he is here right now beside me while i am typing this post.

so there arif, hope ure glad.hahah!

holiday come quick!

come to think of it...tmr is my last day of sch!!!!!!!!!

hahah!

CHEERS!

economics talk

2009-05-20T14:47:00.003+08:00

Because its not available here.because what is provided is just insufficient to get me by.because there is a whole life ahead to live.i cannot die of hunger.there is too much to live for.too many ambitions to achieve.too much fun to be enjoyed.there is too much more at stake.outsourcing is the only way because its not available here.

there i see a source to keep me goin.to feed the unlimited needs and wants.there are no other ways.no other means.this is the only path reasonable enough to take.what is not available here.its there, within you.so fill me in please.because there is just too many ambitions needed to be achieved.too much fun wanted to be enjoyed.there is just too much more at stake.

i wont die of this hunger!because its you who would keep me alive.its you who would keep me goin.

CHEERS!

petty bitch fit

2009-05-18T15:09:00.002+08:00

It doesnt make sense to me why she's so interested in what he's doin.because clearly what he does or doesnt do have no significance to her.it doesnt make any difference to her participation if he participates too.why must she be so concern over his participation?and im quite certain that he doesnt even care of she participates or not.what kind of shite is this??!!!gosh!

however i wont let this petty bitch fit get in my way.because i know there can only be one ME.

On the brighter side though im finally getting my weds and fris back because i am officially off the cca.but i shouldnt be celebrating too much tho cause there are tons of notes waiting to be reviewed.gosh!i shouldnt complain too much really.

CHEERS!

2009-05-14T12:49:00.002+08:00

I hate it when im being judged on an instant.because really how long have u known me?and to think that im all nasty and unreasonable..i dont think u have much of that rights.

But then again why should i bother so much right?because for sure i know im better that someone who's mentally and physically abusive.i know for sure im a better person than u are.

thank u very much.

and oh how ironic what im hearing right now...

CHEERS!

SYF!

2009-04-18T00:20:00.002+08:00

My cca's SYF will be in 4 days time.that is on wed 22nd apr.which is also fifi's birthday.hahah.this cca has had gd record.nvr has it gotten anything less than a gold with honours.so im kind of hoping his batch will be able to achieve the same.i want that gold with hounours really badly.it'd be awesome for my sch graduation cert.and i wouldnt wanna be the batch to shift the cca's gold with honours trail.so i'll just hope for the best and do my best.

something random..

right now im at mcdonalds.and it disturbs me to see that an elderly lady is still working here at this late hr.ideally at that age i would wanna be retired and resting at home.especially at this hr.that elderly lady should be resting at home right now.enjoying a gd night sleep.but instead she's working hard till the wee hrs of the morning to gain extra income for her daily expenses.shouldnt her children be the ones doing that for her?this might affect her health.afterall she is an elderly.it pains me to see her working so hard like that.i know this might sound abit dramatic.but really what if that elderly is our own grandparent..

i hope my parents wont have to resort to such extents to earn some income when they grow old.i hope to be the one caring and providing for them in their old age.financiallly and all things else.it just seems right to do so after all the yrs they've taken care of me, educate me and what not.god's will.
gd night!

CHEERS!

2009-04-10T23:37:00.003+08:00

Ok.ive uploaded the Oasis gig pics on my facebook.so if u wanna check it out u can check it out there.

i feel like this blog is kind of unknown.im not really sure if there are readers of this blog.well i cant blame anyone for not visiting my blog bcause i am aware abt the fact that i very rarely update this blog.so even if anybody visits there's not much to read.but i do hope tho that occassional readers (if there're any) would continue visiting.

ive been getting agitated about the littlest things very often these few wks.im always very tired.and that'll always leave me with very little nerve to attend to irritance and annoyance.because of that ive been getting myself into unreasonable tiffs every now and again.i hate getting myself into these situations.its not worth it.it tires me out.sch alone is enough to drain me of every inch of my energy.i dont need to get myself into anymore complications.

really.im not usually like this and you know it.im not quite sure how long this will last.but i hope it wont last for too long.because before this things were goin on really great.and it still is right now.im just afraid it wont go so well if i continue being like this.this picture has been too beautifully painted to leave even a tiny black dot on it.

i love you monster

CHEERS!

OASIS

2009-04-09T12:24:00.002+08:00

Fuck yeah!!!!!!!!!!

I went to Oasis' gig last sun.

fcking awesome.

how not when i stood DIRECTLY infront of noel at the fcking front row.

that will be all for now.

i'll upload pics (hopefully) over the gd fri holiday.

im tired of sch.

CHEERS!

update

2009-03-10T16:19:00.002+08:00

Its been a wk since the last common test paper and not much has happened.so there's not much to update on.

my whole wk last wk was basically just cheerleading training from after sch hrs to late nights.repetivively throughout the whole wk.so not much really happened.last fri was the sports fiesta and also the cheerleading meet.i shouldnt elaborate much on the cheerleading meet.cuz really there's not much to say.i had fun.thats all.however i am excited though that i won a medal.or should i say a keychain.the medal is actually this small keychain.i got it for spontaneously participating in the telematch event and the silver medal that we got was enough to keep me very much contented.

last friday was also the release of the A'levels results.and im glad i cleared both my h1 contrasting subjects.math was a mere E grade.but i think this is an achievement and a sign of improvement considering the fact that ive nvr even once passed math in my 2yrs plus course in MI.and this would be a great motivational source for me since initially my aim was to get a C and an E is only 10 marks shy of a C.i just hope i wont get complacent.

as for malay it shouldnt be much of a problem for me.getting any lesser than an A would be disgraceful to me.so im glad i got that A.and even though i wasnt expecting a distinction for oral im glad i got the distinction because anything less would very much disappoint me.

as for the common test results they werent as satisfying as i would have wanted them to be.given all the efforts ive put in the results werent really fulfilling.shows how much more effort i have to put in in order to excel or even clear the A'levels course.this fri would be the release of the report bk for the common test results.and i cant wait to see how i fair after all the additions have been done to the raw common test marks.

this wk is the last wk of the term and next wk would be the much awaited term holiday.but i doubt my holiday would be much of a holiday.i foresee many cca activities taking place that will leave me with no room for rest.
and no room for time with monster.something i can safely say we've been lacking.

im tired of thinking and typing.
goodbye.

CHEERS!

library

2009-02-26T17:10:00.003+08:00

i dont understand how a library (in definition: a place set apart to contain books, periodicals, and other material for reading, viewing, listening, study, or reference, as a room, set of rooms, or building where books may be read or borrowed.) could end up to be a place for public affection for some.can anybody be as big an imbecile to not realize this very obvious definition of a library?

ive been visiting the library quite regularly these past few wks to do some revision.and the things that i see here are sometimes very startling.i mean this is afterall a library.i know its really none of my business what people's objectives are for visiting the library.but sometimes their purpose is just way out of line with the government's purpose for building the library in the 1st place.

can u imagine trying to immerse urself in a gd book while students in sch uniform hug and make out directly across u.please!have some sense of dignity.somebody tell these people!and it doesnt help that they come from one of the most prestigous sch in sg.this is infuriating!

well im starting to feel like a naggy old hag.so i guess i shall just end here.

dimwits!

CHEERS!

2009-02-24T17:02:00.002+08:00

after today's economics paper im pretty much left very disappointed with how i did the paper.no.the paper wasnt difficult.i think it was quite do-ablle.but i just have this feeling that i havent done it well.maybe its because i havent had much essay writing practice.i thought my essay was disorganized and all over the place.however i do hope to score some content marks.im quite sure what i wrote was what the questions were asking for.

im really hoping not to fail.but then again there were questions that were left unanswered and incomplete.im not sure if my explanations were enough to score some gd marks.i dont wanna disappoint anybody with my bad grades much less than i wanna disappoint myself for all the efforts that ive put in.im a tad demoralised now.because i feel like i put most of my efforts into this subject.and failing would be a hard knock to my morale.

tmr will be the math paper and im kind of taking a breather for a min now.im trying to get myself together so i'll feel a little bit more motivated to do a little bit of math.but im not sure how long i would take to recollect myself.im really really disappointed about today's paper.

funny how i wouldnt even give a shite abt econs last yr.

CHEERS!

hiatus

2009-02-20T20:12:00.002+08:00

life has been pretty hectic for me lately.i dont think ive ever studied as hard as i am right now.sch used to be really easy.and i used to take tests and exams quite lightly.knowing that i would definitely clear the minimum passing mark.but i guess last yr's promos exam result was a wake up call i desperately needed to be able to get through pre-university education.

now i realise working hard is not nearly hard enough to make it through.working hard doesnt ensure me i would clear that minimum passing mark ive been able to clear all these while.things have changed.in a way larger than i could ever imagined.

now its not about the contents of the textbooks or notes or even extra readings anymore.right now its abt the real world.how the contents of the thick pages is applied to the real world.i guess most of us (be it in poly or ite) are doing that now.but the excruciating course of thinking critically can sometimes be very stressful.but i guess it is for the better of my future after the comfort of classroom chairs and desks are taken away from me.

common test is next wk.and im scared to death of its fast arrival.im not sure if im ready but i hv been making preparation since...quite early i suppose.maybe since the 3rd wk of sch.i really hope to atleast clear all the papers.but im not quite confident since this test includes contents frm 1st yr work which ive long forgotten.but its gd to know that the bulk of the things tested are from this yr's work so far.so im really hoping not to fail like so bad.

im really tired now.gd night.

CHEERS!

2009-02-10T17:11:00.003+08:00

Its so infuriating when im here (in a class i dont have to attend) trying to utilise my time productively by revising and there are all these distractions around me.people around me are happily updating their facebook accounts and checking out others' profiles and what not.so im trying my hardest to be discipline and be focus towards whats important right now and set my priorities right.but i guess i manage to overcome all these distractions since im only posting this entry during the last 15mins of the lesson.and in some ways i am proud of myself.hahah.because really i am very prone to distractions.

i only have 5mins to the end of lesson.ok actually its less than 5mins.fareez (my classmate) here is enlightening me.thank you very much.

i have to go now.

CHEERS!

missed calls

2009-02-07T19:48:00.002+08:00

This hasnt been something that i was oblivious about.ive realised this fact from the very beginning.infact i have foreseen this complication.time has been the factor that sets my social life and me apart.i know some are somewhat irritated that i havent been able to go for meet ups.but i only have 2days (fridays and saturdays) to catch up with my social life.and believe me the 48hrs (minus) that i get is barely enough to catch up on everything.sometimes there are just too many happening at one time for me to be able to take on everything.most of the time i would usually go with the plan that occured 1st.but if i have to choose i'll choose on my own accounts.hey i cant please everybody can i.

apart from that i need energy too to be able to get my arse out of the house.now that i have a cca it adds on to my workload.and its very tiring for me to have to set aside some study time considering the long cca hrs.and it doesnt help that i have cca on fridays.really if i have even an inch of energy left i'll go out of my way to make it for meet ups.but sometimes im just left with fatique.

i very much miss my carefree and unrestraint social life when i was able to get out and meet anybody and everybody at anytime and anyplace.but sch's my first priority now.everything else just have to revolve ard it.and this is my last chance to prove that i am worthy of the a'level examination and cert.i cant afford or even allow myself to compromise anything (anything at all!) at the expense of sch and all its load.as much as i can i'll try to meet evrybody but not all the time though.

so i'd like to apologise to everybody if for one reason or another i wasnt able to make it for any meet ups.

to mimi: what are u saying (with reference to the tag)??ofcourse i still wanna hang with u guys.just let me know where and when.u know i'll be there rite.u guys are family.i can nvr refrain frm meeting u guys.

and i miss dancing.a whole bloody lot.

CHEERS!

Flower Power

2009-02-06T22:41:00.011+08:00

This is where i spent my saturday last wk.no its not at the merlion at fullerton one.its actually at sentosa.ok i now its abit late to be blogging abt this but i havent got much time on hand now.the wkends are the only time i have time and energy to do some updating.so the beloved 07a5 clique decided to visit sentosa flowers last saturday.so thats where i spent almost my whole day at.it was really fun to get to go out with the clique again after so long.i guess it kind of helps keep the bond and chemistry alive now that im not part of their class anymore.and the time that i get to meet them at sch is fairly limited.we used to spend the whole day in sch together when we were classmates.so im glad some take the initiative to organize such meet ups.we didnt do much there.we just basically walked ard and look at pretty flowers.so here are the pictures...

If you look closely u can actually see a little bee on the middle flower in the 1st picture.I think the 3rd picture of this lot is really pretty.like a big red flower ball of somesort.

the 1st and the 2nd pic is actually a pic of the same tree.but i couldnt find an angle that would allow me to snap a shot of the whole tree.so the 1st picture is the bottom half of tree and the 2nd picture is the upper half.beautiful isnt it.

This is my favourite flower among all the flowers i saw that day.it looks like red sunflowers dont u think.but maybe abit smaller.

Monster tagged along too.the poor boy was sick but insisted on accompanying me.how nice.

there are more pictures actually but ive yet to receive it from my friends.so i'll upload the pictures when ive received them or maybe when i have the time.

i havent got much to say now.im abit sick.and my brain is hurting.so i guess i'll just go now.

CHEERS!

fort canning park getaway

2009-01-27T14:24:00.007+08:00

This was where i spent almost my whole day yesterday with monster.if u cant quite see the wordings its actually fort canning park.initially the plan was to explore the battle box.but much to our (mine mostly) dissapoinment the place required tix for admission.8$ per adult entry.being the cheapskates that we were the plan was abruptly abandoned.sigh!

really i dont understand why such places need tix for admission.i personally think that the govt should make it free if they wanna encourage citizens to learn more abt sg's history outside the comfort of our (sometimes) boring classroom.

So without much back up plans we decided to just roam ard the place aimlessly.there werent much to see except for all the different greens.but they were quite enough to keep me contented.especially while with a great company.here are some pictures taken along the way..

I think its enchanting how here n there there'll be a burst of bright colours among all the greens.the 1st pic is actually a fruit.im not quite sure of the name.but it looks very much like a rambutan dont u think.

These are just random scenes that i think would make nice landscape pictures.the 1st picture was taken cause i find it fascinating how the stalk of the plant is black in colour.

the 1st picture of this lot is actually a barrier along the pathway monster and i followed.it has these beautiful wood carvings all along it.must hv taken the maker a long long time carving them.its amazing how it all looked identical.but then again there's always technology to help get the job done.however so i kind of doubt the carvings were the work of modern technology.they looked too detailed and intricate.

the 2nd picture is a lighthouse.random shot.i took it cause monster seem to like the lighthouse.

and the 3rd one is a shocker to me.its actually an abandoned swimming pool complex right across clarke quay.the many times ive been to clarke quay nvr hv i known that there was an abandoned swimming pool complex just across it.shows how ignorant one can be of one's surroundings.

After walking quite a distance i decided to go back to fort gate to snap a few shots there.but my intention was rudely interrupted by the presence of a mysterious old man.as soon as monster and i reach fort gate we decided to rest for awhile.then this old man (not that old actually.between late 40s early 50s maybe..?) came and sat beside us.he suddenly started asking monster if we were there to take pictures.monster said no since we didnt hv proper equipments, like a camera and all.we only had my handphone.then he started blabbering abt religious stuffs and how he has seen many youngsters do "stuffs" ard the park.i guess he was assuming we there for the same reason.clearly not.the weirdest part of the whole lecture was how he knew things abt us even without us telling him.like how he knew my family background and stuffs.and the things he said were almost true.there were some things that he said that were quite nonsensical though.and half the time he was attacking only me.i swear it was aggravating.and all i wanted to do was shut him up.but that would be rude wouldnt it.so we just waited patiently for time to pass and for him to finish.can u believe this stranger who knew shites abt us only let us go after almost 2hrs (or mayb even more) lecturing us.and that was only bcause it was almost sundown.i bet he'd hv more mouthfuls if there had been more time.gosh!freaky!

here's monster and me.and thats about it.

fun's over.back to sch tmr.im glad its a short wk.

to monster: thank you very much love!

CHEERS!

2009-01-24T13:05:00.004+08:00

I swear i wont beg borrow or steal anymore.

it takes up too much of my time energy and effort.

not worth it!

then again maybe i'll still beg..lets face it all of us still hv that spoilt brat in us who just wont stop whining if we dont get things done our way.

CHEERS!

2009-01-23T18:25:00.002+08:00

Finally the skin has been changed!i'd wanted to change it since...i cant remember when.its been too long.hahah.just plain and black.the way i like it.and i think the picture is really pretty.dont you?took me quite some time searching for it.hmm..i havent got much to say right now.life has been pretty monotonous for me.everyday its sch, assignments, revision and sleep.occasionally tv.and on wkends its basically the same thing over and over.well..not really.sometimes there's dance and little occasions here and there.but still the wkends are nvr enough to replenish the energy used for sch during the wkdays.its just draining.but then again i am a student.and i guess this is how it's suppose to be.

ive been wanting to read a bk for so long now.but i just cant find the time to go out and find a gd book that'll enable me to really submerge in it and subsequently drown.cause i think i really need to get away frm sch sometimes.especially since sch is just right outside my window.and the possibility of being superannuated is constantly lingering in my head.that alone is too much to handle.

my social life too has been quite dreary.there are too many people i havent met for too long.and since amir said he's gonna have a gig soon i guess i'll take this chance to catch up with the gd ol' bunch.i really hope to make it this time.

ok.now that ive updated what was an almost dead blog i hope there are still readers.ive ran out of things to say.

CHEERS!

2009-01-22T13:13:00.002+08:00

15mins left to the end break.

Ok.i know i havent been updating.the long hiatus period was just too long.really i havent had much time on hand these days.and its only the 2nd wk of sch.can u believe its already 2009.so im abit late in realising this fact but my yr didnt start until the 1st day of sch.thats when the reality really sinks in.more schwork.longer sch hrs.and an additional..cca!gosh!everything has been fine so far.but im not sure how long it'll stay this way.with the common test fast approaching sch's workload is definitely gonna get heavier.what with assignments and revision.and time is definitely gonna get shorter.sigh!

i havent got much to say right now.too many of my thoughts have been left astray to lead them back to be recalled for this post.i miss my friends.all of them.im still very regretful for missing wasted kids' new yr eve meet up.i hope there's another meet up.till next time.i have classes to attend.gosh!

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Burden

2008-10-30T16:28:00.003+08:00

Malay paper is officially over.one burden down one more to go.i cant wait for the maths paper to be over.i guess most of us taking the paper cant.But before i start doing any celebrating i have to mug like there's no tmr for maths.i very much hope that i'll clear this paper so i wont have to retake it next year.and devote all the study time for the h2 subjects.especially economics!gosh!!!!!

Tmr will be the oral presentation for project work.a project that lasted almost 6mths will finally be over.well...almost over. there's still one more individual assignment to get done.argh!!!!!

even right now at this very moment during a non-sch-day my groupmates and i are in school putting in the final touches on our presentation hoping it'll be perfect for tmr.oh well..

Right then.enough said.i need to get back to perfecting my speech for the presentation.

To fifi: I miss you like fck too.it has been too long since the last time we meet.rayy's having a gig on the 15th.come down ok??

CHEERS!

meaningless

2008-10-28T20:13:00.004+08:00

Another long period of hiatus has gone.finally a chance to update.so here goes...

promotional result is out.well actually it was out quite some time ago.and apparently i have to retake the whole 2nd yr syllabus.my results were really bad.so i was kind of expecting this.but im looking at the whole thing from the bright side though.atleast i'll have the chance to retake my h1 papers incase i do badly in the coming ones.

h1 papers are coming in a few days.malay on thurs and maths on tues.i definitely need a chance to retake since im not doin quite well in maths.so that's the blessing in a stereotypically "bad" situaton.

actually there are quite a number of blessings that come with the promotional result.for once im certain that the person i call bestfriend is truly worth calling my bestfriend.and im glad there's someone there whom i know will always be there for me no matter what.i will surely and definitely miss being with the current classmates especially shaik aini ria fathona and hidayah.but hey i guess life moves on.and its not like we cant be friends anymore right..

on a personal note....i look up on something i guess i wasnt expected to look up on.and results of it was kind of disappointing.i dont really know why.because i was the one who refuse to give a concrete answer.but isnt it all too obvious to be complicated..??you know its happening.i know its happening.we know its happening.in fact everybody knows its happening.so then what's so complicated about it??havent things been said too many times to still be complicated??now im confused myself.

and i guess now i understand why many of my friends bicker with their significant other over a particular social site.there are so many things that happens in there that are quite unexpected.however so i dont think i have any rights or if there even is any need for me to make a big deal out of this.i guess im just thinking too much.and shaik is just more than happy to poke at my feelings.though i know he's just pulling my leg.

nevertheless im still very happy with how things are going.im having lots of fun.its really nice to feel appreciated for all the littlest things i do.

i havent had a lot of social time lately.mainly because ive been stuck with school and the works most of the time.there are so many people i havent been able to meet.and i would really like to meet all my friends.

well then i guess i have to end here.im running out of words and thoughts.i guess some things are just thought about too much.i think too much..

PS: I'll update on the links real soon alright.

CHEERS!

Quick Update

2008-10-14T09:52:00.006+08:00

How long has it been since the last time i updated??very long..

so much has happened since the last post.and ive been too busy to have time to update.so here's a quick one.im currently in sch.enjoying a long break.well not as long as it really is cause there's still some work to get done.oh well...

since the last post.....
1. exam has come and gone.waiting for results is agony!!!!!we're all still waiting for the promotion result.which will be out TMR!!!!!i dont wanna talk abt it.its too scary.
2. fasting mth has come and gone.how sad..hari raya doesnt feel like how it should feel.very mundane.
3. dance competition has come and gone.mimi kin monster akmal dee rahman and me entered a dance competition at bt panjang plaza on 27th sept.and it was awesome.its an honour i might say to get the chance to share a stage with such great dancers.i'd like to thank each and everyone of u guys for bein so patient with me.and thanks for all the support.u guys are awesome.
4. and me....since the last post i have fallen even deeper...uve been great love.thanks for supporting me through my exams through the competition and through everything.it was great goin through the fasting mth with u.and the competition was extra special with you around.heh.thank you very much for being here with me.your presence is enough to keep me contented.

Last saturday was hari raya outing with the fellow millennians.outing was great!
here are some pictures from the outing..

Overdue pictures..

ok.back to sch now.
i miss my friends.
all my friends.
i miss wasted kids.

CHEERS!

falling

2008-09-15T19:42:00.006+08:00

Somehow it feels like im starting to fall.fall way faster and deeper than i thought i would.to begin with i didnt even think i would fall at all.but being fragile to kindness i succumb.and at some point this feeling of being forcefully pulled by the gravity of kindness is...nice.there is something about this feeling that just provides me with all the comfort i need at the moment.the comfort that you provide me with.its all i need right now to calm myself down from all of life's confusion.

Suddenly falling doesnt seem so scary anymore.atleast not as scary as i thought it would be.never have i thought i would fall so soon.bad experiences have kept me away from heights.ive been refraining myself from climbing too high lest i fall.

But somehow someway you make me want to climb even higher.triggering my curiosity.making me wonder what would be there waiting for me at the peak.you make me want to explore the possibilities that might arise the higher i get.and believing that you'll be there with me every step of the way makes me care less about the problems that inevitably will be there waiting for my arrival.

But until i get there.until the problems are right smack in my face i'd like to enjoy every falling moment.every inch of the way down.

THANK YOU for bringing me to places ive never been before.words alone cant show how much i appreciate your presence here with me.

what we have right now..i like it very much.(:

hope you do too...

Just some personal thoughts

CHEERS!

inconvenient truth

2008-09-12T14:12:00.004+08:00

I just have the urge to blog about this.

Firstly please take note that mosquitos dont make gd excuses.

convenience has been the case since this whole new thing started.and convenience...shouldnt it be for everybody??each and every one of us.convenient wont be convenient when it is for one and not the other would it?and getting bitten by a mosquito makes the place inconvenient??lame love.seriously.

i cant deny that getting all fussed up abt finding a suitable and convenient(!!) place for dance practice is stupid.but seriously...mosquito??ok i shall stop ranting about this.its not as if it'll make any difference.i wont succumb to agitation.getting agitated over such trivial matters brings no benefits.besides agitation is a waste of energy.my brain is too tired to think of anything to argue about.hahah.

Personal note: Sorry love.I just have to do this.heheh

No offence though alright.ure still great.hahah

This blog is getting boring without pictures.i shall revamp this blog after the exams.

CHEERS!

inferiority

2008-09-10T12:55:00.005+08:00

Like a servant to his king.

thats how inferior i feel.suddenly all that was planned and said didnt matter.its all new now.new plans.new place.new people.way out of my comfort zone.

ive been in my comfort zone for too long.ive been there from the start.and being forced to get out of it only now has proven to be very reluctant.but then again..who am i to have any say?im being dragged out of my comfort zone and fighting back would only be a vain effort.

as much as i know that everybody has gd intentions at heart.i just cant get myself to fit in and feel comfortable.it feels like im not gd enough.everybody is up there.and i feel like im no where near where they are.and it doesnt help to have one who talks like one's all that and have all the skills in the world.not everybody has that advantage do they.

but maybe just maybe i need a little bit more time.or a little bit more space to relax and open up a tiny bit to the new environment.however so..i doubt having to work with these new people for a few weeks would provide me enough of the time and space i need.gosh!

on the brighter side there has been some kind of encouragement and trying to make me feel better.even though it doesnt quite seem to work...yet!i think.i dont know.i guess i should just do what ive been doin everytime im thrown into a new environment..go with the flow.

i cant be arsed to dwell anymore on this matter.and besides its only for a couple of weeks.i should be able to sustain that long.

It doesnt really matter what this is about.

exams are still on going.3 more papers to go.

fasting month has been great.im still waiting for the chance to go geylang and eat yummy dengdengs.somehow fasting month wont feel complete without a visit to geylang.well happy fasting all.

and i miss wasted kids.

CHEERS!

Thank you (:

2008-09-08T00:42:00.004+08:00

Today was too great to leave out from this blog.i know i havent been updating quite oftenly and im very sorry.this week long holiday has been pretty hectic with so much revisions to be done in such a short period of time.but nonetheless i always manage to have a little bit of fun.and today was the icing on the weekend cake.

has and me went to the southern ridges today.it was kind of like a preview of how the real outing (planned to be some time after my exams) would be like.the place was beautiful.we didnt go all the way though.it would have taken too much time.since i had to spare some time for revisions.so about less than a quarter way through we left the place to end up somewhere in telok blangah's housing estate.and who says you cant get lost in singapore..we were clueless of where we were.so we just decided to walk aimlessly until we find a bus stop that had buses that would take us to harbour front.cuz i decided to go to keppel bay.

and keppel bay was absolutely beautiful.having a great company with me there just complimented the place.the talks jokes and craps was just perfect for a quite place like that.sometimes you just need noise from laughters dont you...

as simple as how i blog today to be.it was just perfect...i forgot how nice it was to have a 2 person outing until today.and for that i would like to thank has very much.

today was...

banana split with lots and lots of whip cream and oreo crumbs and a sweet cherry on top.

PS: Happy fasting!!!!!and gd lcuk all for the big promos.

and sorry for not posting any pics.i dont have any from today.

CHEERS!

dance dance

2008-08-26T18:35:00.006+08:00

Oh how ive longed to feel this sensation.a sensation that allows me to let go and be free.all worries and troubles aside.its just me facing the music.as i twirl and i swirl.out of breath.but stopping nvr crossed my mind.every beat and every step matters.moving in syncronisation.every drop of sweat is delightful.wet hair flinging from side to side.oh without any care.fulfilling me entirely.all worries and all troubles, for that one moment, ignored.

this feeling.this excitement.

finally after 7mths 24days and 20hrs.i got a taste of the dancefloor.

tasty...

PS: NOT dancefloor at the club.

promotional exams in 2 wks times.i barely have time for anything else other than school and revisions.but ofcourse i hv to make time for dance.hahah.a girl needs to let go u know.

well forgive me for not updating often.time have been very limited.

CHEERS!

crashed

2008-08-17T14:27:00.004+08:00

First and foremost

i'd like to thank teacher for passing me the usb cable.so..

THANK YOU TEACHER!

its such a coincidence that teacher passed me the usb cable two days after i posted the previous post.if anybody read you would notice that i said i couldnt upload any pictures cause i didnt hv a suitable usb cable.and this makes me wonder if teacher actually reads my blog

for starters he already knew of the existence of this blog of mine

wouldnt it be a little embarrassing if teacher really reads my blog...

oh well..

but even with a suitable usb cable.i still cant upload any pics just yet.my laptop crashed

for god-knows-what-reasons it suddenly decided to keep itself shut downed

refusing to turn on even after i press the on button 10million times

ok.im exaggerating.but it sure does feel that way.how aggravating

right now im updating using has' laptop.isnt he just nice and sweet.

THANK YOU HAS!!!!!

but ofcourse the main reason for him letting me use his laptop is for me to complete my EoM.so i guess i better get started on it.

PS: Sorry once again for the lack of pictures..or rather for not posting ANY pictures at all.

CHEERS!

birthdays weekend

2008-08-10T14:58:00.007+08:00

So far the long wkend has been great

and im glad it turned out that way

because come next wk

the intense revision HAS to start

no more procrastination

friday started out just perfect

my teacher gave me a digital camera
and you dont know how shocked i was when he passed it to me

mouth opening and all.really

im very thankful for the gift

THANK YOU VERY MUCH TEACHER!!!!!

the condition for this gift:

pass my GP

gosh!!hahah

kin's birthday celebration in the evening was great.many of our friends turned up and there were lots of great food prepared by his beloved grandma.i swear i looked pregnant after gorging doan all the food but who could resist good food on a friday night rite..?

i hope shafiq had fun celebrating his birthday too.sorry i wasnt there to celebrate it with you

and yesterday was fcking awesome!!!!!

great friends.good food.fireworks.birthday cake.jokes.talks.jamming.and late night.

what could be better

as simple as all of the above are

its enough to make a saturday superbly awesome

great friends

great friends = good company

what more is there to explain..?

good food

THANK YOU WAWAN FOR THE EARLY DINNER TREAT

the nasi ayam penyet at restaurant ria (i think)
at lucky plaza was yummmmmyy!!!!!

wasnt it rayy and wawan??

"jangan buat aku ketawe!pedas!"

hahahahah

fireworks

well i missed it

only got to see it in between walks

when the fireworks peek among the trees

but oh well..

looking for the birthday cake was much more important

apologies to didid and ajid for depriving u guys the chance to catch the fireworks

birthday cake

i think it was a brownie birthday cake

chewy chewy yum yum

jokes and talks

"johnny is james' father

james is the (blank) of johnny's father"

fill in the blanks.hahah

wawan still owes me an ice cream for answering that question

jamming

we got bored of just sitting and talking

so the boys decided an impromptu jamming session

i wasnt really involved in it

i was only sitting listening and watching
but it's been so long since i last watched anybody jam

and i enjoyed myself watching and listening

late night

rayy wawan and me left for home earlier than the rest

but still quite late

we were all really tired

but happy and glad that the day turned out so well

even with glitches here and there

and some broken promises

but it was all still great

i hope all the rest had as much fun as i did

and im glad you enjoyed your day too wawan

PS: I apologise for the lack of pictures

but the usb port from the camera is different from the usb cable that i have

i shall upload the pic as soon as i got the usb cable alright

CHEERS!

national day boy man

2008-08-09T00:58:00.004+08:00

Celebrating his birthday with the nation today is WAWAN!

so...

Happy birthday to wawan!!!!!

all the while ive known you

youve been a great friend

and a great bitching partner.hahah.

hope this friendship will continue to grow together with us

gd luck in everything you do

i wish you all the best in life

whatever path you may choose to follow

(im certain you'll only choose the best path)

i wish you success

lastly hv fun celebrating

once again...

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY WAWAN!!!!!

and

HAPPY 43RD BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!!!

CHEERS!

080808

2008-08-08T00:10:00.003+08:00

Happy 18th birthday to dearest shafiq!!!!!
finally legal.heheh.

may you have a blessed birthday

and i hope you'll have fun celebrating with your loved ones

especially aisyah.

may u stay happy and bliss always

and i wish you all the best in your life

dont ever give up on anything you do

for i believe you are capable of more than you are aware of

and you should believe it too.

and

Happy 17th birthday to kin!!!!!

ive watched you grow

and you have indeed grown to be a fine young man

i wish you all the best in your future endeavours

as much as i am like a sister to your brother

you are like a brother to me

looking forward to the celebrations tmr

have fun

and dont get too high on the booze now alright

once again

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO SHAFIQ!!!!!

AND HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO KIN!!!!!

CHEERS!

breaking out

2008-08-07T22:45:00.003+08:00

i was just looking at the mirror awhile ago.and i realise how i havent been taking gd care of my own well-being.my face is sufferring frm a serious break out.and im disgusted by the state that its in right now.i have uncountable number of spots on my face.im not sure if its just pms or is it really the lack of tlc.and it seems like the spots are nvr going away no matter how often i wash my face.though i havent really been washing my face.my facial foam tube has been empty for god-knows-how-long.but everytime i thought of buying another tube, by the time sch ends that thought would have flown far away from my memory.but i have decided that by hook or by crook i shall buy that much needed tube of facial foam tmr.for my face has been neglected for far too long.and lately ive also been feeling really tired.i havent been getting enough sleep or rest.my body has been aching for the past week.and im not sure if it'll be gone anytime soon.there're just too many things to do.sch.assignments.and on top of it all revisions.GP paper is fast approaching.there're only 11 teaching days left before the paper.and after that will be the 1wk, full of intense revisons, holidays.so much for the holidays.gosh!im not even goin to start talking about the exams.thinking abt it alone is just too much for the brain to handle.now i really need some sleep.

PS: Its ironic how i say i cant find time to do this and that

but still manage to find the time to blog

i guess i just need some medium to let out my thoughts

CHEERS!

Just tired

2008-08-06T20:41:00.003+08:00

I havent been studying much these few days.since the start of the week ive been nothing but tired.and its only wednesday now.im not quite sure why ive been feeling so tired or what ive been doin that i feel so tired.maybe its just school.on its own it just tires me out.and the fact that the promotional exam is only a mth away is not helping.

today was a real bore.there's no tuition lesson to tutor.so i was left to rot at home all alone.everybody else in the house seem to have people to meet and things to do.even the kittens hv things to do.they nvr get bored of each other.always running around and playing.if not eating or napping.dont you wish to be a kitten??i do..

so instead of occupying my hours of free time studying ,rightfully what i should be doing, i did the laundry, a little bit of cleaning around the house and editting to this blog.there's not much difference but its a change.i just needed to do something else other than flicking channels on tv.

and while i was cleaning the toilet i dropped a bucket full of water on my feet.now my feet is bruised.how stupid.i dont even know how i lost hold of bucket.gosh!

well ive an essay to write.it's actually due today at 5.but i was just too tired and lazy to get it done and go back to sch just to hand it in before 5.so i shall hand it in tmr morning.ive yet to get started on it.i guess i should start now.

CHEERS!

untitled

2008-08-04T22:40:00.002+08:00

Isnt it aggravating how feelings just creep up to you?one moment you think all is well and things are neutral.but the next moment you feel so awed that you'll hope for more.then you do some thinking and figure that things should just stay the way it is.neutral.confusing??as much as it confuses anybody who reads this.it confuses me more.but ofcourse i shall stick to being neutral.as hidayah told me this afternoon im liberated.i'd like to be able to do things without anybody standing in the way.afterall this is my life.now shaik will tell me that im over-thinking.and so i shall just leave it to this.what am i ranting about??im not quite certain myself.well then...

CHEERS!

Busy Saturday

2008-08-03T16:19:00.007+08:00

Saturday was indeed a busy day for me
the alarm clock was already ringin at 545am
waking me up cause i had to go to yishun jc for a seminar
but being a lazy arse that i am
i decided to snooze it
or so i thought.hahah
i only woke up at 610am
when has (hahah!) gave me a wake up call
and that was when i realise that actually i really didnt snooze the alarm.hahah
thanks to has for making an effort to wake up in the early hours
just to gv me a wake up call
THANK YOU VERY MUCH!APPRECIATED!

the seminar ended at 1

then aini fizah and me went to salvation army
to enjoy some cheap spree
love it!
met ria and mira there
but the spree had to be cut short for me
since i had a birthday surprise to attend to

it was great getting to meet fellow sec schmates again
it was khairul's birthday yest
and fifi organized the surprise for her beloved
keppel bay was beautiful
the long walk under the scorching hot sun was certainly well paid off
the scenery was awesome
words alone cant describe how beautiful the place is

keppel bay.credits to fifi's flickr.

i will definitely go back there again sometime
and again the enjoyment was cut short
as ive promised to meet rayy tedd and syazwan to watch the fireworks

the fireworks was awesome yesterday
much longer than the previous time i saw it..i think.heh

and now i cant wait to catch it again on the real day

firework display

we'll have a cake with us on that day
wont we wawan??heheh

after the fireworks we walked down to clarke quay to hang

met amir and erma fad nora and didid there

thanks rayy and wawan for staying late

and thanks to fad nora and didid for joining us

also thanks to those who came down

Today shall be a boring day

my time will be filled by finishing up assignments.

yay!??

CHEERS!

In my Opinion...

2008-07-29T18:07:00.011+08:00

SOMETIMES guys can be very insensitive

i dont wanna be looked upon as being an extremist nor a sexist
so i shall claim that only

SOMETIMES guys act insensitively

why the sudden claim??

well..a close friend of mine injured her ankle today

and its so apparent that she's in pain
and its difficult for her to move around

even so her bf refused to fetch her

to ensure that she reaches home safely

the worst thing is he refuses even after being asked to do so

very politely by an external party

i wonder where's the initiative..?

its just an opinion..

so nobody should take it seriously

here are some overdue pictures...enjoy

Racial Harmony Day at School.Monday.21st July.

Saturday.19th July.

Off topic:

My sis kept getting her belongings confiscated at school

im not happy abt it

she kept getting herself in disciplinary trouble

although her offences are not major

but its persistent

eg. always coming late for school

gosh!i wonder who she got this from

she should learn a thing or two from me

hahahah.

CHEERS!

Goodbye wkend

2008-07-27T21:11:00.004+08:00

Somehow it feels like i havent been blogging for days

but it was only friday that i updated this blog

oh well

another wkend gone
what can i say abt it...

wkends have been fairly similar

well atleast the nights have been fairly similar...

Clique.Hidayah is the one in the exaggerated malay dance costume.hahah

Saturday afternoon was Transcendence concert at school

performances were fine i guess

as much as i am not into malay dance

i think their performance was the best

to see the syncronisation throughout the whole routine

was pretty much enough to entertain me

kudos to hidayah and all the other malay dancers

and gd job also to dann for his rendition of david cook's always be my baby

and not forgetting beloved home tutor/math tutor Mr Lim

for his soulful performance

Mr Lim

Dann

Shaik.The fave bitch.

met wasted kids after the concert

at esplanade

so we thought of catching the fireworks display

but apparently there werent any

so we ended up watching a gig there instead

awesome performance by a local band

i didnt catch the band name though

but they were really great!

so we hung out after that

it was great how we were all interacting with each other

we tried our hardest not to leave anybody out of the conversations

there were plenty of talks and jokes to go around

and that was great

it was a bummer though that there were only 7 of us

so i really hope that more could come down the next time

and i apologise if anybody were not told of the meet up

i'll try my very best to inform everybody else the next time

arses

Personal message:

you are just so irritating with your oh-so-fake innocent look

trying to be nice to me by making sure that i reach home safely

or so you claimed!

*roll eyes*

*laugh my ass off*

nonetheless.....

THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR THE TIME SPENT

PS: Its been so long since i went out with fellow dancers on weekend

we should do it soon.maybe next wkend??for suntec dance heats??

CHEERS!

Yani

2008-07-25T09:40:00.006+08:00

Happy 23rd birthday
to dearest and beloved Yani!!!!!

for all the years ive known you

you've been a role model

i envy you for the success you've attained

and i hope you'll succeed even further with each passing year

gd luck in your life

and hope you'll stay bliss with your loved ones

i love you!!!!!

once again

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!

CHEERS!

Busy and Tired

2008-07-24T17:51:00.004+08:00

give me peace??

Ive been really busy lately

so busy and tired that i dont quite have time to blog

or do anything else for that matter

except for goin to school

busy with what?

im not quite certain myself

i just dont seem to have the time

and school has been tiring the hell out of me

normal school days seem to last forever these days

ive yet to receive my report book

but already im feeling as though im way behind time

as far as revisions are concern

how i wish time could stop

just for a moment

a moment for me to spend my time sitting at the beach

enjoying the sea breeze

and listening to the waves crashing

and since time has stopped

i wont have to worry about time to leave

or what tmr has in store for me

spent the whole of last wkend with fellow schmates

specifically shaik ria and aini

i had a great time with them

i suppose this is the first time ever

i spent time outside of school hours with these arses

purely to have fun

and not for the purpose of studying or projects

we should definitely do this again some time

pictures will be posted soon

now im just too plain lazy and tired

And i still miss dancing very much.Very very much.

CHEERS!

Faizul

2008-07-19T02:08:00.004+08:00

To Faizul

Happy 18th Birthday!!!!!

May u succeed in ur future endeavours

and be blessed in everything you do

you've been a great friend

i thank you very much for all the times

you lent me a listening ear

offered me advices

and always consoling me when i feel down

thank you very very much

once again...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!

PS: And thanks for taking your time to entertain my nonsense.=)

CHEERS!

So finally we meet

2008-07-17T23:22:00.002+08:00

Cause you and i both LOVED

We used to share our lives

to you nothing else seem to matter

but this child-like little soul

and you used to be a whole life

a present hoped to be the future

with a past always together

With you i can always be a child

with you i am always a child

you were always trying your best for me

buying me candies every single time

i throw tantrums

you never failed to keep me contented

but as most say

and as you and i say

shite happens

and dreams and hopes were left as they are

our lives were forced apart

by a mistake that i might not ever forgive

myself for making

only you have a heart pure enough

to forgive this imperfect form

Although our dreams and hopes fall short

and the time shared wasnt as long as we would like it to be

i am sincerely grateful

i got the chance to get to know you

and the chance to spend a part of my life with you

you taught me many things

i might not be able to learn on my own

and even today i am still learning from you

i must admit though

sometimes i still miss the shared life

but for what it was

i was all worth it

every single second of it

Thank you for being a part of me

Thank you for the shelter u never fail to provide me with

Thank you for all the insecurities you discarded

For many more that i am grateful to you for

THANK YOU FOR BEING YOU.

CHEERS!

2008-07-16T20:34:00.006+08:00

to the beach anybody??

Mid week

still no updates from you

i might not be in the most suitable position

to be complaining abt this matter

but you told me you would

indeed a one week stay isnt long

and im not the most important person

for you to spend time with

but you told me you would

so i got excited over nothing too early

i guess mine is one of the last names

on your "pple to meet list" huh

But hell why should I make a big fuss over it

its your life your choice

who am i to be concern

PS: Nothing in this entry matters

CHEERS!

2008-07-14T22:16:00.005+08:00

Went to watch Ultrasound gig at chamber yesterday

witness a grand performance by a grand band!

standing ovation for

RAYY WAWAN SHAIFUL AND AKIM

better known together as

TOPSY KRETTS.

Check them out...

Covering ACDC.TNT.

money well spent on the tix

i dont really care about the other bands performing

i was there solely for topsy kretts

and i wasnt left disappointed

yay!standing ovation

at lost.

you are.

in my opinion.

this will not be the last time

i'll save to pay for tix

to watch u guys.hahah

gd job!

Original.Warrior.

Enjoy the videos.

For more go to

http://www.youtube.com/

and search for topsy kretts.

amir syazwan

Last but not least...

Happy 18th Birthday to Amir Syazwan!

May u be blessed in everthing you do

Have a great one.

And dont ever stop pursuing your love for music and art.

CHEERS!

Shitty Saturday

2008-07-13T04:17:00.004+08:00

shite

Saturday was a relatively shitty day

the day started out fine

until i realised i lost my red vespa badge

i was devastated!

as cheap as it is

as insignificant as it may seem to the rest of the world

it holds much meanings to me

firstly it was given to me by shaik

one of the closest person to my heart

my favourite bitch

secondly he bought it for me on my birthday

and lastly its a fckin red vespa!

ive lost something shaik bought for me before

and i was determined to prove to him

that i wasnt goin to loose this possession

when he said that he's sure i would lost it

now that its really lost

im ruined

i might sound abit too emotional

but i do love that bagde

rayy

rayy.wawan.the reasons why this saturday was great.

went to watch rayy's gig at youth park

no comments for the event

but rayy's band decent child did awesome

gd job decent child!

for so long that ive known him

this is only the second time i watched him perform

and it wont be the last

will be watchin him again at chamber

later today.cant wait.

on my journey home.

as i was happily listening to

whistle for the choir by the fratellis

the term "lonely" just suddenly hit me

and it got me thinking

many have told me that they feel lonely without a partner

and ive always wondered why they felt that way

many have told me that life would be much easier with a partner

but ive always felt the total opposite

im not against the idea of having a partner

to share ur life (or so) with

its just that i like living like this

for now it seems to b the best way to live

ive never really felt lonely

im lucky i have loads of friends to meet up with

to talk laugh cry and spend time with

to share the good and the bad with

im aware that it might not be the same

with friends and that special someone

but right now

friends or rather families

as i would like to refer to them as

are enough to get me through

PS: Thanks for taking the bus to bukit batok with me.

And walkin to my place with me.

Your company and treats are very very much appreciated.

CHEERS!

Lets Dance!

2008-07-10T20:30:00.003+08:00

SHALL WE DANCE??

6mths 10days and counting

already half a yr

thats how long...

i cant deny it anymore

i cant brush it off

i miss it.so very much.too much.

dancing seems to be the only passion

i am pursuing or rather i pursued

without the slightest reluctance

the promise i made to myself seems to be near broken

i NEED to dance

i really do.its been too long

when im dancing

there's nothing else to think about

except the music the steps the countings and the flow

thats all that matters

nothing else

not anything else at all

dancing feeds me with the best feelings

feelings that are non-adjectives

it can only be felt

when ure dancing performing

or doin anything ure passionate about for that matter

PS: FYI its not dancing in clubs i am talking about.im not missing club dancing.

it is well chereographed routine dancing i miss.

CHEERS!

need dresses!

2008-07-08T21:14:00.002+08:00

run-down black dye and bright camera flash gives red hair.

Dresses.dresses.dresses.

so many pretty dresses

available in so many blogshops

and such limited amount of money!GOSH!

i need to stop window-blogshopping

because if i dont i'll go crazy!

really i will.hahah.

today...

sch was sch

how else can it be.hahah

got a couple of papers back

i dont even want to talk abt them.heh

we'll see how my overall results will b like

SHITE!

PS: I shall blog abt my excitement when i hv pictures.

and by that time it'll be old news.but who cares.hahah

CHEERS!

Empty Brain

2008-07-07T20:42:00.002+08:00

I would very much like to update this blog

but unfortunately

i dont hv pictures to show the excitement i am feeling

i am ecstatic

but i think pictures would show better.heh

ive so much to tell...

shite!

normal school hrs resume tmr.

arse!

CHEERS!

2008-07-06T11:48:00.002+08:00

ripped frm rid's blog.thanks.heh

Wkend almost over

and normal sch hours will resume tuesday

shite!why am i always not ready for sch??

well atleast the exams are over

now for the much anticipated results.gosh!

i guess i wont be getting a new look by monday

plan failed

due to some miscalculation of time

and the lack of proper plannin

im quite sad actually

i was really lookin forward

hmm..oh well

but other than that saturday was still great

got to hang out at the beach for awhile

met fellow dancers

watch bboy dance comp

awesome shites!

met wasted kids

talk.laugh.laugh.laugh.laugh.laugh.laugh.talk.

fcking grand

despite the fact that some couldnt make it for the meet up

and that some had to leave earlier than others

i think this is a really grand meet up

its great to see all of us sitting all together

talking laughing and joking

without anyone seemingly feeling left out

its great is it not??

then time has to fly by

evrybody seems to want to catch the last train

and i didnt want to catch the last train or bus

so i decided to wait mimi up

he was catching a midnight movie

thanks monster ashik and T

for accompanying me

much appreciated

THANK YOU!

saw ella and zizie

before leavin youth park for hm

great to see them

as they couldnt make it to the meet up

zizie is very much missed

its been so long since i last saw her!!

and today

a friend is getting engaged

congrats to u love

may ur relationship grow stronger with this engagement

and may u continue to hv a blissful relationship

CHEERS!

2008-07-05T10:05:00.005+08:00

A man

at this stage of life.

in this situation.

holds much responsibilities

responsibilities that are obviously his

responsibilities that god has bestowed upon him

to fulfil no matter what

but sadly this man

he is not doing as much as he should

to fulfil his responsibilities

instead in this eyes he is expecting

expecting from a woman who should be supported

not supporting

hate..

towards this man

is inevitable

love..

towards this man

is inevitable

i seriously need to get back to the tuition lessons

and earn from it!

im tired of turning to mom for my dosage of wkend pleasure

CHEERS!

2008-07-04T15:49:00.003+08:00

me myself and i...

350pm now

and i just came back from sitting for the malay orals

oh!what can i say abt it.

i dont even know how to describe how it went

well..i think i read pretty well

but im not sure if the dicussion was alright

and this is for my A'levels!

GOSH!

so that's that

mid year exams ended this mornin

with the malay literature paper wrapping it all up

dont really want to discuss how that went..

well or not.im not quite sure

but it was do-able

and as promised to shafiq

im going to attempt the questionaire

State 10 random facts about yourself

1. i love to laugh

2. i laugh at anything and everything

3. i love banana (the fruit)

4. i love dancing

5. i love music

6. i love noel gallagher! and oasis ofcourse

7. i love wasted kids fellow dancers and my favourite bitch!

8. i hate having negative thoughts and feelings

9. im a lazy lazy arse

10. i love food.lotsand lots of food.hahah

1 . What is the thing you want most?

To excel in my studies

2 . What is the thing that you want to do most?

Be a teacher

3 . If you had ONE wish, what would it be?

To be able to support my family.

4 . What are you afraid to lose most?

My FAMILIES!!!!!

they aremy biological family wasted kids family and dance family.

5 . What will you do if you're dying soon?

REPENT

6 . Do you believe that your best friends will betray you?

sadly..yes

7 . If you love someone you love, will you confess to him/her?

most probably...im not sure

(need to b in the situation to know for sure)

8 . What is in your mind?

right now...exam results.hahah

9 . What type of people do you hate most?

multi facade arseholes.

10 . Will you cherish your every friendship?

yes.each and evry one of them.

11 . Do you believe in GOD?

yes.definitely

12 . What will you do if you had a million dollars?

donate.renovate my home.slurge on family(mom and sis especially).

treat the families (biological wK and dancers) to a full meal!

13 . What will you like your friendship to be like?

everlasting.

14 . What is your favourite hobby?

dance

15 . What will you do if all your friends hate you?

im not sure really.nothing??

unless that friend is a very very close friend.

16 . If you feel low someday , who would you turn to?

MY FAVOURITE BITCH and The Families.

17 . If you had 3 wishes, what would your wishes be?

excel in studies

be financially stable

hv a happy happy life!

18 . What are the dates you will never forget?

too many to state.hahah

19 . What will you do if you have a time travel machine?

not quite sure...hahah

i hope i'll be able to have a new look by monday.

alright thats it.

CHEERS!

2008-07-02T01:27:00.002+08:00

geekindirrtyshits

I got myself a fcking dreadlock!!!!!

well its only one lock

but still i think its awesomely grand!

and now im considering getting half my hair done

hmmm...

love this pic.love these pple.

met up with the wasted kids today for rid's birthday surprise

i think it was a success

despite having hiccups here and there

and pple arriving late.me included.

sorry all.

it was a success in a sense that rid was surprised

he didnt expected it

and that was really gd

and credits to ain for being able to coax him

to go to istana park

apparently he thought the place was boring

and was reluctant to go there

but i guess eventually rid gave in to his love.heh.

and im glad i got to meet fifi shafiq rid and ain

havent met them for quite some time

as attemps to meet these arses often failed.hahah

hope we'll get to meet and hang againg this coming saturday

u guys have been very much missed

somehow it seems like ur heart is not here anymore

wouldnt it b better if u just leave

if things are done only half-heartedly

mayb we're not as important anymore

mayb its cuz u hv another

mayb its cuz we've been replaced

but how can i ever say this

u seem to b the one most loved

even when we're not the ones who are most loved

how can i ever say this

when ure one of the closest to me

shouldnt we just leave all the negativities

and make full use of the positives

shouldnt we all b more optimistic

look at the bright side

instead of mourning over the littlest problems

wouldnt it b more easier this way

wouldnt it b more worth it...

PS: Im glad we're talking again.

You make up a big portion of why today was such a great day

CHEERS!

2008-07-01T16:09:00.003+08:00

birthday boy!

To dearest Rid

happy 18th birthday!!!!!

hope u'll hv a great one

and may all ur wishes and dreams

come true

CHEERS!

2008-06-29T14:21:00.003+08:00

smile for the great wkend

Yet another great wkend has come and gone

this wkend was great

thanks to all those who spent it with me

namely ajid wanteng monster scoob yenny wan faris wan (with the straight hair) feroz and gf amir haziq harris and rasul

i hope u guys had as much fun as i did

went to arthouse to watch a hip hop gig on saturday

well actually i was only there on the account of wanteng and ajid

and to watch wan faris perform ofcourse

monster and his friends scoob and yenny were also there with us

the more the merrier i suppose.hahah

i think wan faris and his fellow crew mates did

a fantastic performance

it was really flawless

well atleast i think it was

had dinner at mcd after that

loads and loads of laughters were enjoyed over dinner

thanks to the pranks they continuosly played on me!hahah

apparently scoob couldnt get enough of taking my things away from me

things like my burger!

and it didnt help that wan faris was there to gv him a hand at it

when hip-hoppers meet...

im glad monster and scoob could get along pretty well with the wasted kids

else it would be really weird wouldnt it...heh

after dinner i suddenly realised i was late to meet mimi at sembawang!

i promised him i'd spend the night at the beach

with him and some other friends

had too much fun i suppose.heh

said a quick gdbye

then met amir rasul and haziq harris for a quick chat

before i left for sembawang

im really sorry i couldnt stay long

i feel really guilty

but a promise needs to b fulfilled doesnt it??

taken some time ago at the beach

and at the beach...

what could be better than gazing at all the twinkling diamonds

that are trying hard to make each and everyone of our nights a dazzling one

its a blessing for me to be able to witness the beauty of the night sky

while others were busy consuming alcohol!hahah

thanks for accompanying me on the phone

appreciate it right

thank you!

and talking to drunkards can b a load of fun

they say the most stupidest things.heh

no offence tho to anybody really

i just find it rather tickling.heh

the sunrise was really pretty

it has been a long time since i get to watch the sky in such a light

all the different tones of the sun ray lighting the night sky

so that we would b able enjoy a bright day

beautiful indeed

im glad i got to snap some of the beauty with a really awesome dslr

belongin to one of the boys.heh

but too bad i dont hv the pics now tho

so here i am now

its 350pm

ive just reached hm

and ive yet to get any sleep

fun's over

back to reality

back to exams!

gd luck to all millennians.

PS: To the rest of the wasted kids who couldnt make it.

i hope u guys will be able to make it the next time alright.

CHEERS!

2008-06-28T14:12:00.002+08:00

i miss this bitch.

Atttitudes.

i dont understand

most of the time u want it to happen

most of the time u yearn for the times spent together

like old times

like before

the happier times

when we would stay up late and spend all our time laughing

and for some...

spend all the time crapping

we've seen each other cry

we've seen each other get sick

we've seen each other happy sad or angry

we've seen each other pretty much in every light

at our best and also our worst

but now that its almost falling apart

why are we not working together to keep it all standing

why are we not working together to bring back old times

me?

im still going to keep tryin

im still going to keep on fighting

i dont really care if i'll get anything in return really

i dont really care if anybody notice what im trying to do

or if anybody really appreciates

or if anybody even response

i guess u and me..

we are really different

what am i bloggin abt??

does it really matter...

i'll be spending my night at the beach tonight

with fellow dancers and that

yay!!cant wait!!

CHEERS!

Mrs Norindah's Birthday

2008-06-25T21:56:00.007+08:00

Happy birthday to Mrs Norindah!

May God bless u with all the happiness u deserve.

A simple birthday wish for shaik's beloved mommy

i hope ur family and u enjoyed celebrating today

gd luck to all millennians

and gd luck to me

for tmr's math paper

thats all

im exhausted

i need the beach

and i need to sleep...

CHEERS!

Unreasonably Pathetic.Thats U!

2008-06-24T23:34:00.005+08:00

math is fun!

Unreasonably pathetic.

two words to describe u

it's not in my intention to hv such unsightly images of u

for afterall u are a friend

but unfortunately this is how ure portraying urself to me

dont claim u werent offered a place

when for upteen times u hv refused the offers

when for upteen times u hv ignored the offers

it is not in ur right to blame

for i believe that no one else is at fault

for i am sure u are the only one causing this to urself

stop saying that its all over

it is not!

most are still standing strong

still seeking to keep it all stand strong

one man down

doesnt end it

muggin is fun.

tiring as it is

torturing as it may seem

it nvr fails to leave a tinge of satisfaction

and that sense of achievement

especially when i spent almost 8hrs doin math.

CHEERS!

Exams sucks!

2008-06-23T21:25:00.003+08:00

i love me.hahah

Right now im suffering from a major major headache

must be the lack of sleep

and my hand is aching real bad

must be all the writing this mornin

mid yr exams commenced today

with malay paper and management of business paper kicking it all off

gosh!5 more papers to go.yay!

*rolls eyes*

so i was tagged by shafiq

but im not in the right state of mind

to be answering the questionaires now.hahah

i think ive answered enough questions for today

but i promise i'll get it done as soon as the exams are over alright

which is in abt 2wks time.heh

economics paper tmr

and i cant be arsed to study for it!

and its not as if i'll be able to soak in anything anyways

pray for me world!hahah

to the person who tagged on shafiq's and zizie's blog

or "gareg" as you would like to call urself

get a life alright sweetheart

just because ur life isnt as grand as ours

doesnt gives u the right to diss us u know

we're grand as we are

and we dont need any comments or feedbacks from u

thank you love

PS: News spread fast amongst wasted kids u know.

CHEERS!

Dancers' Day Out

2008-06-22T00:53:00.004+08:00

untitled

Today was.....a day

well i dont quite hv an exact adjective to describe the day

it was alright

i met neither my fellow dancers nor wasted kids

so thats a huge huge minus

somehow im very very much attached to them

they ARE family

and not getting to meet them on a saturday especially is a real bummer

but on the plus side

this saturday wasnt as bad as i imagined it to be

atleast i went out

met a few pple

watched a b-boy dance competition

and enjoyed a few laughs

all thanks to monster

a fellow dancer

not MY fellow dancer

he's from a different crew

he gladly invited me to join him and some friends to watch a b-boy dance competition

as he was aware that ive been bored for the past wk

so with a phone that has apparently lost its use as a communication device

and a wallet that has been near empty for god knows how long

i agreed to his offer

hahah

and im glad i went

atleast i got to enjoy a few laughs

the three in green are those i went out with.this is us after chingay2007.

the competiton was....awesome??

i dont know

i dont really watch these kinds of competition much

so im not quite sure how to rate it

but all the contestants were really gd tho

atleast i think they were.

so after that we went to far east for dinner

and before that i saw faizul!!

u dont know how glad i was to see him.hahah

atleast i met 1 of the wasted kids

meeting him somehow in a way or another made my day

thank you very much faizul

since i hv his pic.might as well just upload it.here's faizul.=)

went back to youth park to hang after dinner

apparently its their hangin spot

and card games to them are like...grand!!

they play it as if there's alot on the line

with strategies and all

i find it rather funny

i mean its not like there's money involved or anything.hahah

so basically that was it

that was my saturday

not that its dead boring

just not the usual helpings of companies

but i still had fun tho

and i thank monster for taking the initiative

to make my saturday an exceptional one

thank you!

CHEERS!

2008-06-18T16:38:00.004+08:00

indulging

Exam stress is getting to me

4days to mid yrs

and im craving for lots and lots of comfort food!!!!!

i want...

chocs.coffeebean's banana choc ice blend.waffle.banana split sundae.cake.

and more chocs.much much more chocs.

and lots and lots of fruit juice to wash it all down.

would u like to hv all these with me??

ive been staying hm for the last 3days

i'll die of stress and boredom if this continues

why cant everyday b like saturday?

when there are lots of plans to look forward to

and lots of people to meet

and lots of laughters to enjoy

and most importantly no schwork to think of

i guess this is just a minor hurdle i hv to overcome

in order to achieve my ultimate goal

to become a teacher!

hahah

i miss wasted kids.

i miss hangin together in a huge group

i miss watchin u guys get wasted.

gd times.dont u guys miss this??

finally!!!!!

u made my day...

CHEERS!

2008-06-15T01:47:00.003+08:00

what if...

I think u hv a very striking smile

its a shame that its only now that i realise this fact

but now that i know

i am very much drawn to u

what if i tell u i like u

what would u do?

what would u say?

would u accept this fact

and move on with me??

or would u leave me high and dry??

but certainly there is more to u than ur smile

there are more reasons why im very much charmed by u

wouldnt it be nice.....

CHEERS!

2008-06-14T14:57:00.003+08:00

My mood hasnt been at their best these few days

im not quite sure why

its rather disturbing to feel like there's something missing

when i myself cant figure out what it is

it feels like i hv so much to pour out

but being the way i am

i always find my way out of that feeling

and that'll leave me stuck

with what??

im not quite sure

i think i confuse myself

hahah.

to u

im glad uve found somebody to talk to

to fifi

wanna go to the beach??

to wasted kids

i'd like to hv fun with u guys tonight

CHEERS!

2008-06-13T18:57:00.003+08:00

i miss the beach

It seems everybody wants to be pleased

everybody wants their needs and wants to be fulfilled

but the fact is nobody can get everything they want

especially when there're external parties involved

the more the number of people involved

the lesser the chance of achieving what we want

nobody can please evryone

i cant please everyone

we all hv limits

there are things we can do in other to please others

and at the same time

there are things that we dont hv the strength and capability to do

these are where our limits are

and most of all

we all hv choices

i hv choices

there are reasons why choices are made

and there are reasons why some choices made by u and i are as it is

choices are selfish

most of the times not all the time

we all make choices based on reasons we think are best for us

and sometimes for people ard us

i make my own choices

i think most of us do

dont we??

choices we think are best for ourselves

for our future...maybe

and to those who are affected by the choices we make

respect is what is needed from them

so the next time u are affected by the choices people ard u make

please...

do respect them

Lastly but certainly not least

gd luck to taufik aka macky on ur endeavour to serve the nation

hahah

looking forward to see u without ur oh-so-nice long hair

PS: Fifi!!!!!havent send me the pic of me and taufik!!!!!

CHEERS!

2008-06-11T15:48:00.003+08:00

remember??

Firstly i do realise that i am nothing to the wasted kids without u

i want u to know that

really.i mean that

secondly yes i am happy

im happy with what i hv

im happy that people are willing to put in effort for the sake of my happiness

im happy because i want to show these people that i appreciate all the efforts that they put in for me

i cant be mourning over our fall out when people are trying hard to make me happy can i??

and thirdly yes i can find someone else in the family to confide in

but that person is not my bestfriend

even if i confide in every single one of them

it wont be the same

simply cause no other person in the family is my bestfriend

just u...

and yes i agree that i am able to mix ard with the family

but do u know how much i talk without u ard??

not much i assure u

its different with and without u ok

i can talk to u all through if u were there

but without u i cant find much to talk abt with the rest

and u think im not fcked up that u werent there on my birthday??

u think i wasnt fcked up that u didnt wish me happy birthday??

do u know that i broke down on my fcking birthday talking to fifi abt the fact that u didnt talk to me even on my birthday

and do u know how many times i cried in my rm

feeling like shite over the fact that we're not talking and we're in this state

u dont know all that do u??

cause ure looking at me frm my surface

u shuld know me

u should know that i'll smile and laugh even when im sad or angry or shite

u should know..

y must u come to such conclusion

doesnt our friendship mean anything to u??

is it that irrelevant and unimportant that u would say gdbye over a small argument??

we're better than this

arent we...??

PS: I miss u.I really really do.

PS: Thanks for being there for me.And thanks for comforting me.

want kiss???wakaka!

CHEERS!

2008-06-09T00:59:00.007+08:00

My oh my

what a jam packed wkend i had

a great way to end a very fcked up wk

ive been feeling down the whole wk

but the wkend totally made up for all the shites that hv been happening

my wkend was so jam packed that i only hv time to update this humble blog of mine today

so here...

updates from fri to sunday

Friday 06 June 2008

From the previous entry u can see that i was in malaysia today

johor bahru to b exact

went to accompany mimi dye his hair

am i not repeating what i said on the previous entry...??

anyhow reached there and lunch was the first thing on our mind

ate at the foodcourt at city square

my lunch

mimi's lunch

then off we went to Reds hair salon

waited hours for mimi's hair to get done

but at the end of the day the result of the hair dyeing was way below expectation

oh well

had malaysia's starbucks after that

malaysia'a starbucks

choc cream chip

then had some snacks at this alley

looked pretty much like the alleys at bugis just uglier

hahah

and menu of the day was...

chicken neck

something mimi wouldnt let me leave without trying

i tried it

and well...it tasted just like chicken...

alley

chicken neck

mimi

after that we head back to singapore

and met shaik

talked.laughed.laughed.laughed.

talked.talked.laughed.laughed.laughed.

ate at kfc

talked.laughed.laughed.laughed.laughed

basically that was it

we had so much fcking fun

what a way to start a great wkend and end a fcked up wkday

my favourite bitch 'n' me

Saturday 07 June 2008

My birthday wish:

to meet the loves of my life

namely fellow dancers favourite bitch and wasted kids

FULFILLED!

as if 1 surprise wasnt enough

i got 2

super awesome!

met shaik and mimi

then off we went to mad jack's at bt timah

for a lunch i thought was for 3

reached there

settled down

looked at the menu

i turned ard and...

"happy birthday to u.happy birthday to u....."

yani hafiz and kin came in with a birthday cake

i was very very surprised!

i didnt expect anything really

birthday cake frm fellow dancers

birthday lunch

birthday drink

thanks very much u guys

and remember i said i love u guys to the fcking core..??

i think that's an understatement

hahah

u guys are the best

and im glad u could be part of the celebration shaik

thanks u so so so very much

thanks for the treat and the present

love it!

birthday present from mimi 'n' yani

after that mimi shaik kin and me went to town

walked ard aimlessly

and finally decided to settle down at taka

where i met up with fifi and feka

mimi kin and shaik left

so fifi feka and me met up with belle wanteng ajid and tedd at topman

went to cineleisure to meet ray rasul haziq harris wan faris zizie and ella

talked.laughed.laughed.laughed.

went back to taka

then walked to istana park to meet faizul and salam

sat.talked.talked.talked.

ella asked to go to the toilet with her

then wan faris ella ajid and me went to plaza sg to watch a bboy dance comp

went back to istana park

saw fad

saw lights coming frm behind

i screamed

"happy birthday to u..happy birthday to u....."

yet another surprise birthday cake!

i dont even know how to describe how i felt

i was utterly and very much pleasantly surprised

again id like to thank u guys for the surprise

i really really didnt expect any of these

and u guys bought me a fcking ice cream cake!
and a banana!hahah

thanks u so very very much

i really really appreciate the effort

(turns out going to the toilet and accompanying me to watch the dance comp was all a distraction strategy.hahah.u guys are great!)

went to bugis after that for a sheesha session

hanged for a few hrs

then we walked all the way to clarke quay

great fun great exercise

hahah

hanged there till morning

we had a whole lot of fun

talking and joking and laughing

and there were some guitar playing and singing too

super awesome!

sure some went to the club

but so what?!

we can still have our own sets of fun outside the club

we werent necessarily waiting for them

we were just hangin and having fun

i love wasted kids!

u guys are great!

should do this often alright.

i got bored and i did this...

new found gay friend.the cutest gay ive ever seen.heh.=P

sorry.no pics with the wasted kids yet.upload it soon alright.

Sunday 08 June 2008

most of us didnt go hm after the whole night spent at clarke quay

instead we went to zizie's place to wash up and all

thereafter we went to the airport to send didid off

he's flying to mecca for umrah

awesome rite

got to hang with him for abt an hour before he had to leave

bon voyage to didid

and we all pray he'll hv a safe flight

and his journey will be a blessed one

so we went hm after that

every single one of us were dying for our beds and pillows

we were drained from staying out all night and all morning

reached hm

had a quick hour nap

before getting ready to go out again to meet mimi kin and haiqal

went to taman warisan at bugis to watch some performances

met shaik hafiz and akin there

after watching the performances we had dinner

than hanged at the premises of the national library

talked.laughed.laughed.laughed.

played a few games to entertain ourselves

laughed.laughed.laughed

and i swear i was falling asleep while we were playing the games

hahah.

so left at ard 1030

took the train hm

and here i am updating this humble blog of mine

and i still havent got the much needed sleep

its 148am now

and i so need my ned right now

PS: Thanks very much to all who wished me happy birthday

i appreciate it lots

really really

thanks for all the hugs and the surprises

all of u are grand and brilliant

thanks so very much

i cant say how much i really appreciate all the efforts

And thank u for the shoulder to lie on

ure sweet really.

the comfort.the security.

the butterflies.

is this for real??

CHEERS!

2008-06-06T16:08:00.002+08:00

Time check: 408pm
Location: Protrim @City Square, Malaysia

Im in fcking malaysia!!

well johor bahru to be exact

and im bloggin frm a hair salon!

hahah

here to accompany mimi dye his hair...

he'll only stop when each and evry strand of his hair is gone

im sure.hahah

alright.

got to go now

will update more later tonight

CHEERS!

2008-06-04T21:34:00.003+08:00

i finally got to borrow the roddy doyle bk ive been wanting to borrow since i finish reading the last roddy doyle bk (paddy clarke ha ha ha)

which was months ago

this time its called paula spencer

i read a few pages

and i had to stop to blog for abit

roddy doyle.paula spencer

im glad i got to borrow this bk

i am so in need of a getaway

i think ive been thinking too much

amidst all this chaos of mixed feelings

sadness excitement confusion and supense

everything bunch into one

a gd bk is all i need to get myself back

i cant wait for tonight

because thats the time ive set aside for me to read

for me to get away

get away to a world of imagination

my safe haven

shaik.favourite bitch

went to the library with shaik today

i had a blast

shaik seems to be the only person i could go out with

and hv endless things to talk abt

we're nvr short of talks craps and jokes to share

there's always something to share

and there's always something to laugh abt

for that i love u!!

and for that ure my favourite bitch.

ugly feets.beautiful friendship.beautiful picture.

stayed up till 330 last night

couldnt sleep

and out of random thought

i came up with this

Waiting

oh how i hate waiting

for ive always been waiting

waiting for a reply

waiting for a sign

waiting for an assurance

most of all waiting for time

for uve been oblivious

oblivious to my feelings

oblivious to me

oblivious to how uve made me feel

most of all oblivious to the fact that ive been waiting

but wait is all i hv left to do

for i believe that

the best things come to those who wait

doesnt it...?

CHEERS!

2008-06-03T17:21:00.002+08:00

I feel like a total arse rite now

well ive been feeling like an arse since the day we bickered

i am such an arse!!!!!

im really sorry shafiq

believe me im not way better than u

im not way better than anybody

im human too

i make mistakes

mistakes such as this

it just kills me when u said uve given up

i dont want u to gv up

cuz i know ure capable of more

if only u would believe me

ure my best friend

and i'd nvr wanna do or say anything to make u feel inferior

and ive seen ur capabilities

ive seen u do things that initially u say u'd nvr be able to do

i just dont want u to gv up

please forgv me

u might say that i dont owe u an apology

but i just think its the right thing to say after i let u down

and i told them u dont let me go to the club cuz thats the only way to get them to stop asking me to go....i think

well..its the only way i could think of

see..im not way better than u

sometimes...or most of the times i need U to back me up

please talk to me.....

CHEERS!

2008-06-02T02:01:00.003+08:00

random picture.star biscuit

Im so fcking tired

i need my bed

its 0201 am rigth now

and ive just finished doing part of my project work

wkend was as usual great

even though i didnt get to spend much time with wasted kids

i still enjoyed the few laughs we got to have

we met.we smiled.we shaked.we talked. we joked.we laughed.we talked.we joked.we laughed.we walked.we talked.we joked.we laughed.we shaked.we smiled.we walked.

can we do this again sometime please??

this is how i look like when i tie my hair.=)

hangin out with shaik was super fun

i need to sleep now

dont you??

CHEERS!

2008-05-31T00:38:00.002+08:00

Time check:1241am

I just came back from an outing initially planned for a singapore flyer ride

well i didnt get to take that ride

it was cancelled due to bad weather

lightning risk i suppose...

but even so my day was still very much enjoyable

although it was a little bit quiet at times

hahah

me and my anti social ways.heeh

we went for a movie

watched indiana jones

brilliant!!!!!

there were many unexpected scenes

and i love all the actions that came with it

very worth it!

i thought i wasnt goin to enjoy it at first

im not such a big action movie fan

but this movie was fantastic!

hahah

the moral of the story: knowlegde is power and curiosity kills a cat

hahah

PS: somehow i think this movie is ET inspired.hahah

random picture.empty seat

"the treasure is not gold.

the treasure is knowledge.

knowlegde is their treasure"

Indiana Jones

yani's chalet tmr.

or should i say later in the afternoon.heh

sorry.no pictures from the outing.

CHEERS!

2008-05-29T13:43:00.003+08:00

rain...

Yesterday was a great day!

finally i went to the beach

with fifi shafiq and aisyah

but the weather wasnt great tho

it was rainin really heavily

and fifi and me didint get the chance to spend as much time on the beach as we would like to

but it was fine

atleast we were at the beach rite fi?

and i agree with u

we do need another day, a sunny day i might add, at the beach

Pictures i manage to snap bfore the rain started to pour again

went to 4e5 reunion dinner after beaching

it was really fun

even tho i was lost for words initially

and all i felt like doin was laugh

hahah

but as time passed and we started to talk abt the funniest and foolish moments in class i got the hang of talking

hahah

it was really fun

individually not much has changed

evrybody was a s wacky as ever

and i miss ezann!!!!

im so disappointed that u werent there bitch!heh

atleast meet me and fifi soon alright..

malay clan.without me...

i went hm

irwan.my 4e5 he-bitch

and ofcuz..fifi my bitch

and today...

i shall stay hm and chat online for as long as i can

hahah

the end of the 1st wk of holiday is fast approaching

3 more wks to sch and the big mid yr exams

and ive yet to start revising

fcking hell!

keep me company please will u??

CHEERS!

2008-05-27T17:48:00.002+08:00

Time check: 530pm
Location: Pacific Coffee @ Raffles Place

im really bored right now

dont know what to do

so i shall blog

hahah

well i dont really have anything to blog abt tho.heh

yay!

finally somebody has asked me to go the beach

lets go fi!

so i shall go to the beach tmr mornin

before the "reunion" lunch with fellow sec schmates

cant wait to meet them

its been soo long

random thoughts

this is how it is when boredom strikes

sometimes the way i react to things is like how my mom would react

gosh!so freaky!

hahah

i love whip cream

its so sweet and yummy

faizul has a really nice singin voice

hahah

yes u do!!!!!

I might be goin to singapore flyer this fri!!!!!

yay!!!!!

awesome arse!!!!!

Check out these super awesome pics from yani's engagement

Silveratis.1 member missing tho.heh

hyperians.we are family!

(love this!)

CHEERS!

2008-05-26T00:55:00.003+08:00

rockstars.random pic

What a wk it has been

ive been having early mornings for the whole week

yes!!even on the wkend

the days i look forward to as i get to sleep in

but the wkend was still great though

cant say the same for the wkday

hahah

me 'n' mimi.love no. 1

yani 'n' me.love no. 2

spent the whole day today with my fellow dancers/loves

mimi and yani

we went to the gym

hahah

yes i went to the gym to work out

its so unlike me

after that we went to yani's place

cooked dinner for the whole family

and had family dinner

really nice

when mimi and me wanted to go hm

we actually missed the last bus

shit!

so we had to cab hm

what a waste of mimi's money

but my wkend was still really fun

and i didnt break my promise

im really proud of myself

hahah

you could be my unintended...??

i think ure my unintended

could you be my unintended??

CHEERS!

2008-05-23T22:05:00.005+08:00

i donot look like a minah!

Ive been feeling very weird lately

like something is missing

but im not quite sure what

i love my life

its perfect rite now

i think i hv enough to keep me contented and satisfied

hmm..

maybe i just need a visit to the beach

hahah

are we goin to the beach???

anybody wanna rot at the beach with me??

hey how abt u?

u seem really nice

wuld u like to rot at the beach with me?

PS: HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY ZULMIMI!!!!!

CHEERS!

2008-05-21T18:34:00.003+08:00

Random thought

Most things around me seem so familiar

everything is within my comfort zone

everything is the same as it was yesterday

and im sure it'll be the same tmr

dont get me wrong

im happy with the things around me

i appreciate everything i have

but sometimes i wish i was somewhere different

somewhere new

somewhere i can be amused by the things i see

or touch

anybody wanna take me places ive nvr been before??

hey how abt u?

u seem really nice

wuld u like to take me to places ive nvr been before??

1 thing for sure.i'll nvr get tired of the beach.

let's go to the beach!

Ps: the hot and humid weather is killing me!!!!!pain frm ulcer is getting increasingly worst each day...and my msn sucks!

CHEERS!

2008-05-20T18:41:00.004+08:00

Hidayah talked to me abt something today at sch

here's how i'd like to summarize my feeling regarding the talk

That was THEN

This is NOW

loves

bestfriend, shafiq

MI bitch, hidayah

sec sch bitches, ezan 'n' fifi

wasted kids

lovely kittens

MI bitch no.2, shaik

mommy

sis

daddy

bro

And ofcourse school

i love my life NOW

CHEERS!

2008-05-18T06:58:00.003+08:00

2 of the kittens

Time check: 6:58am

and ive just reached hm a while ago.hahah

guess who greeted me the moment i opened the door

my lilttle kitten.heh

so adorable

stayed out with some of the wasted kids

namely salam rasul rayy is and ella

i met them quite late and i didnt wanna go hm so early

thus i stayed out

we had fun

ok.details need not be told

i went after the meet up

evrybody else went hm

so technically i didnt break my promise..

rite.....??

i feel so guilty now

tell me if any of u think i broke my promise rite

so i wont do it again

i seriously promise i wont do it again

SERIOUS!

trust me please.....

PS: Thanks guys for being so concern when i coughed too much

im still recovering frm the oh so bad cough

and thanks for all the advices

i'll drink more hot water ok rasul

and i'll buy another bottle of cough syrup if i dont get well soon ok salam

u guys are sweet.

rite.so now i need to sleep!

need to attend a gathering at mimi's place later.

gd mornin everyone

CHEERS!

2008-05-17T01:16:00.004+08:00

Finally the gp paper is over

this means im only left with malay lit paper, economics paper, management paper and maths paper

coming in abt a mth time

gosh!wat a relieve huh.*roll eyes*

save the cheerleader.save the world

Last afternoon (friday 16th may) was the sports meet

this means cheerleading meet also

YES!

im in cheerleading

some may think its lame

i know some of u do

but try getting urself involve in it

and see if u'll still think its lame

its fcking sheer hardwork alright!

I LOVE ZIRCON CHEER!!!!!

To those involved

namely artini fathin farhana cynthia wendy danial aly ama shahrin daniel lyn asyraf amin hanaffi mehru cathy vicky en jia hidayah fadzila aqilah

and some more..heh

its 1:38am now

my brain isnt working well.heeh

so im sorry if i left out any names

u guys were all great

it doesnt matter that we didnt get the desired position

what matters is that we had fun and we've created a bond that has much2 more value than any prize can offer us rite

GO ZIRCON!

hahah.

Cathy me aly 'n' ama

hidayah gabriel "the hot chinese" 'n' me

Cheerleading retards

Shaik 'n' me

aini 'n' me

hidayah 'n' me

retarded 'n' tired!

yay!finally i'll get the much needed rest this relatively long wkend

i cant wait to sleep my arse off

hahah

and i cant wait to meet wasted kids

More pics to be uploaded in the next post

now i seriously need to get some shut eye

PS: Thanks danial for accompanying me while i update my blog.i noe ure really2 tired.ure sweet.=)

CHEERS!

2008-05-13T22:11:00.002+08:00

we're back!

And so i heard.....

Wasted Kids are BACK!!!!!

yay!im so glad we are.heh

but i dont quite know why or how we're suddenly back tho

well im not usually in the scene or in the know of things

what with sch and all the shits

i dont really have much time to spent with THE FAMILY (heheh)

only on ocassional wkends

and therefore i should spend these times with u guys wisely and NOT go to the club.=)

even this big news

i heard it from shafiq

so any wasted kid(s) kind enough to tell me the real story??

anyhow..im really glad we're back

cant wait to hang out with u guys again

saturday rite...?

happy

well the mid yr exams are nearing

its coming to me faster than a cannonball

im not ready!im so not ready!

argh!!!!!!

this friday would be the 'much awaited' general paper (gp, which is also equivalent to english) paper

we'll see how i fair for that soon enough.

shithole!

some random thought..

i love my kittens!!!!!

they help me relieve my tiredness

they're so adorable

Ok.there are some more pics i'd like to upload but i cant seem to do so.

i dont quite know why

oh well..i'll just upload it in the next post.hee

CHEERS!

2008-05-11T09:05:00.003+08:00

And i quote:

i think clubbing is a disease..

a disease which is too contagious..

its like smoking a cigarette for the 1st time..

once u start, u wont wanna stop..

http://www.rockassmonster.blogspot.com/

OMG!!!!!

I totally agree with this statement

and i have to admit that i think im infected with this disease

gosh!

i cant believe clubbing would have such a big impact on a relationship

i cant belive clubbing could be a cause for a failed relationship

i feel so guilty

im actually part of the reason the relationship failed

fckin hell!

im sorry!

im really really really really really sorry guys

i wont do it again

i know its a little too late for sorry-s

but i think a little effort put in is better than none at all rite.....?

so there..

NO MORE CLUBBING ON MEET UPS!

dearest friend/sister/fellow dancer, noor zalyyani, is getting engage today

im so excited for her

we grew up together and now im going to witness her engagement

i think its wicked that we live through and experience so many moments in life together

Yani and mimi...

i love u guys to the fcking core

part of who i am today is who u guys taught me to be

(this explains the craziness!hahah!)

Ok now i have to go get ready

if not i'll be late for the ceremony

CHEERS!

2008-05-08T22:31:00.003+08:00

This morning during econs lesson econs teacher returned an essay assignment

and as usual the grade i got was atrocious!!!!!

shit!

and at the bottom of the assignment...

econs teacher wrote

"need to put in more effort!"

oh gosh!

what a slap on the fcking morning face that was

so for that tiny moment

i reflected on the amount of effort i have put into econs...

well not much..

argh!im still very much sick

fever sinks in evry time night falls

and its very very irritating

and due to this i cant concentrate well everytime i flip open the pages of my notes

shithole!

i dont think i'll be spending this wkend with wasted kids

it feels kind of sad

ive gotten use to hangin out with them on wkends

oh well...some things are not meant to be

and maybe this is another one of the things in my life that's not meant to be

CHEERS!